So I know I'm not the easiest person to talk to when I'm depressed.
I know that I turn down everything anyone says,
Or I lash out unnecessarily,
Or I simply refuse to respond if I don't feel like it.
But that's all just a defense mechanism,
Because I don't know how to explain what I feel.
I don't know how to tell you that I'm not happy, when there's no reason I shouldn't be.
I don't know how to ask for you to be supportive or make me feel better, because I don't think that's your job.
So I just sulk and pretend I don't want someone to walk me through it,
But that doesn't mean I don't,
I promise.
So just once... even if I act like it doesn't help...
Can't someone at least ask if I'm going to be okay? Or if there's anything they can do? Instead of just saying, "Oh, well, I guess I'll talk to you tomorrow."
I don't want you to talk to me tomorrow...
I want you to talk to me now...
/emo rant over.
